I want to be happy in life, find acceptance of who I am... Help?

I've found that my entire life has been overly humorous and cruel. This isn't a teen angst post primarily, i just need help finding peace. Im a nerd i love video games and reading; and I'm often satirical of life. I have always felt out of place as my IQ, 165, and unattractive looks often bring me ridicule and hate. I am losing a lot of weight and am on the skinny/chubby border. I find I'm less unattractive now. I just want to find some one who i genuinely love and admire. help on this eh?